But what about my daughter Lord?
This was the thought going through my mind at the Cleansing Stream retreats this season. Here I was, serving others, helping them to be set free, when my daughter was going the wrong way.
Something happened while she was in the church internship, not sure exactly what it was that caused this attitude in her. But she couldn’t wait for it to end. She complained that she didn’t get out of it what she wanted.
My husband and I saw something different. We saw that she hadn’t engaged fully, that she hadn’t put in all that she could have, and therefore, didn’t receive all that much out of it, though she did grow.
But then…something happened.
A boy from middle school showed back up in her life. This boy had not been a good influence on her. Whenever she was around him she turned sullen, and her attitude stank. We were so glad when we thought she’d outgrown him, and talked about how controlling he had been. We thought she’d seen the light.
But now, here he was again. Right at the time she’d been hurt and wounded by something that happened at church.
Long story short, it seems as if my twenty year old daughter has turned her back on everything we’ve taught her, everything she stood for, and is now living with this boy in a trailer outside his grandmother’s house.
I have been devastated, heartbroken, angry, judgmental, fearful, pretending to myself I don’t care when really I do, I just don’t want to cry anymore. She’s not the same person she was. I don’t know this girl…anyone that hears of what’s happening has the same reaction, “That doesn’t sound like her.”
And it’s true, it doesn’t.
So this season, I was still joyful to see other people be set free and to work with them and have a part in it, but in the back of my mind, I still wondered, Lord, what about my daughter?
I had received comfort and hope in prayer, but one morning as I was walking down the stairs, with a load of laundry in my hands, not in prayer… just going about my daily business, I heard Him, plain as day in my spirit.
I am going to do a mighty work in your daughter.